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lecture20030611_sm.jpgDe Glind, Holland - June 11, 2003
[Part 2 of a Lecture About Shrila Raghunatha Dasa Gosvami]
Shri Shrimad Bhaktivedanta Narayana Maharaja

Shrila Rupa Gosvami saw that Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami is grievously weeping and feeling separation for Shrimati Radharani, day and night. He therefore gave him his book Shri Lalita-madhava to read. Reading that book, Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami became like a mad person, weeping even more continuously, so much so that the book became wet and began to be ruined. Shrila Rupa Gosvami therefore told him, "Give me back the book, because I will have to make corrections;" but Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami replied, "Oh, I will not give it back." Then Rupa Gosvami wrote Dana-keli-kaumudi - for him only - describing how Shri Krishna checked all the gopis at Dan Ghati and how Shrimati Radharani and Shri Krishna quarrelled with each other when He demanded toll tax* [See endnote 1]. The gopis asked Krishna questions like, "Did You receive this forest from Your father, or, from where have You gotten it?" An abundance of sweet and loving quarrelling took place there.

yatraiva krsno vrsabhanu-putrya / danam grhitum kalaham vitene
sruteh sprha hyatra mahaty atah sri / govardhano me disatam abhistam

[Demanding a road tax, Krishna quarrelled for several hours at Dan Ghati with the daughter of Vrsabhanu Maharaja. Rasika-bhaktas visiting Govardhana are eager to listen to that sweet prema quarrel. May that Govardhana fulfil my desire that I also can hear that verbal battle. (Shri Govardhanastakam, verse 3)]

"O Giriraja, You have seen how They were quarrelling. When Lord Krishna demanded a toll tax, the gopis told Him, "This is Shri Vrndavanesvari's forest, not Your forefathers'. Shrimati Vrnda-devi donated this entire land to Shrimati Radhika." Lord Krishna said, "Vrnda is My wife and her property is Mine!" The gopis then called Vrnda-devi and asked her, "Are you married to Krishna?" She replied, "I don't know this black cheater. He thinks that all gopis are His wives."

Shrila Visvanatha Cakravarti Thakura has written this song, and he is praying therein, "I want to hear this sweet loving quarrel. I want to be in Vrindavan. I pray to the dust of Shri Giriraja Govardhana and beg that he be merciful.

When Shrila Rupa Gosvami gave this second book to Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami, he read it and began to laugh - sometimes rolling on the ground while laughing. Then, very cleverly, Rupa Gosvami told him, "Please give me back Lalita-madhava for some days; I will make corrections and return it to you."

In this way Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami was always absorbed in the transcendental madness of feeling separation and meeting. After some time he wrote Shri Vilapa-kusumanjali, and he began this book by offering pranama to his Guru. Although, Shri Svarupa Damodara is also his Guru, his real Guru, the Guru whom he was actually following in totality, is Shri Rupa Gosvami. In the first verse he offered pranama (obeisances) to his Guru, Shri Rupa Gosvami, in his form as Shri Rupa Manjari. He was joking with her (Shri Rupa Manjari) and telling her, "O, you are very famous all over Vraja as a very chaste lady. But although your husband is not at home, although he has gone to buy a cow and has been out of Vraja for many days, I see that there is a cut on your lips. How did it happen? It seems as though a parrot has come and, thinking your lips to be a bimba fruit, has perhaps bitten them." After this pranama, he wrote the rest of the verses of Shri Vilapa-kusumanjali [a bouquet of flower-like lamentations offered at the lotus feet of Shrimati Radhika.] In this book he also offered pranama to his siksa-guru Shrila Sanatana Gosvami:

vairagya-yug-bhakti-rasam prayatnair / apayayan mam anabhipsum andham
krpambudhir yah para-duhkha-duhkhi / sanatanam tam prabhum asrayami

[I was unwilling to drink the nectar of bhakti-rasa laced with renunciation, but Shrila Sanatana Gosvami, being an ocean of mercy who cannot tolerate the sufferings of others, induced me to drink it. Therefore, I take shelter of Shrila Sanatana Gosvami as my siksa-guru. (Shri Vilapa-Kusumanjali, verse 6)]

Continually weeping, he wrote, "I offer pranama to Shrila Sanatana Gosvami, who was very kind to me. I never wanted to drink the nectar of Bhagavan Shri Krishna's pastimes; so he gave it to me forcibly, and thus he was so merciful. I never wanted mercy, but he forcibly gave it to me, and therefore I offer my obeisances to him."

tavaivasmi tavaivasmi / na jivami tvaya vina
iti vijnaya devi tvam / naya mama caranantikam

[I am Yours! I am Yours! I cannot live without You! O Devi Radhe, please understand this and bring me to Your lotus feet.]

Later on in Shri Vilapa-kusumanjali Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami prays to his worshipable deity, Shrimati Radhika, "O Radhe, I am only yours, I am only yours, I am only yours. If I don't attain you at once, I will give up my body."

padabjayos tava vina vara-dasyam eva / nanyat kadapi samaye kila devi yace
sakhyaya te mama namo 'stu namo 'stu nityam / dasyaya te mama raso 'stu raso 'stu satyam

[O Goddess! I shall never pray to You for anything but the excellent service of Your lotus feet. I offer my constant obeisances unto the idea of becoming Your friend, but I truly relish the idea of becoming Your maidservant. (Vilap-kusumanjali text 16)]

"O Shrimati Radhika I don't want to be a sakhi like Shrimati Lalita-devi or Shrimati Visakha-devi - of equal rank to You. Only grant me this boon, O Radhike, my Svaminiji! I want to serve You under the guidance of Shri Rupa Manjari, your most obedient and dear maidservant.

sri-rupa-manjari-kararcita-pada-padma- / gosthendra-nandana-bhujarpita-mastakayah
ha modatah kanaka-gauri padaravinda- / samvahanani sanakais tava kim karisye

[O golden complexioned girl, when You are lying with Your head in Shri Krishna's lap and Your feet in the lap of Shri Rupa Manjari, and when Rupa Manjari is massaging Your feet, will she, with the corners of her eyes, give me her maha-prasadam seva of gently massaging Your feet while she is fanning You? (Vilap-kusumanjali, text 72)]

This is rupanuga-dhara, the line of conception of service under the guidance of Shri Rupa Gosvami. Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami is praying here, "O Rupa Manjari! Only you can save me - by giving me your remnant service." Shrimati Radhika was once lying down on Lord Krishna's lap, and He was caressing Her head and serving Her. Her feet were one the lap of Rupa Manjari, who was very gently massaging them. Rupa Manjari called Rati Manjari (Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami in his perfected spiritual body as Shrimati Radhika's maidservant) and said, "Come on, come on! I will give you remnants. You can massage and I will fan." How merciful is Shri Rupa Manjari to have given this remnant.

I am explaining this topic because this is our aim and object, and you can achieve this goal by following Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami. If you are not like him, how you can attain this goal?

He has elsewhere written in Shri Vilapa-kusumanjali:

asa-bharair amrta-sindhu-mayaih kathancit / kalo mayati-gamitah kila sampratam hi
tvam cet krpam mayi vidhasyasi naiva kim me / pranair vrajena ca varoru bakarinapi

[For me, the present moment is somehow flooded by a nectar ocean of many hopes. If You do not give Your mercy, then of what use to me are this life, the land of Vraja, and Shri Krishna, the enemy of Baka? (Vilapa-kusumanjali, verse 102)]

"O Shrimati Radhika, I have spent so much time only to fulfil this one greed. When will You bestow upon me Your mercy. I have spent years - my whole life - only for this. I only want Your service. If You will not sprinkle Your mercy upon me, then what is the need of my being at Shri Radha-kunda or Shri Govardhana? What is the need of my serving Lord Krishna? I will not even want Him."

ha natha gokula-sudhakara su-prasanna- / vaktraravinda madhura-smita he krpardra
yatra tvaya vihatate pranayaih priyarat / tatraiva mam api naya priya-sevanaya

[O Lord, O nectar moon of Gokula, O Lord whose cheerful face is a lotus flower, O sweetly smiling one, O Lord melting with compassion, so I may serve You both with love, please lead me to the place where Your beloved enjoys confidential pastimes with You." (Vilapa-kusumanjali, text 100)]"O Lord Krishna, I offer this prayer to you. You are serving and sporting with Shrimati Radhika. Wherever You are doing so, please take me there at once. If you are both in Dvaraka I will fly there, but if Shrimati Radhika is in Vraja and You are in Dvaraka, I won't go there. I will go wherever She is present. Please take me to that place where You are with Her. I know that you cannot give Her up for even a second, because You and She are one."

After some time Shrila Rupa Gosvami and Shrila Sanatana Gosvami became aged and disappeared, and at that time Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami became totally maddened in separation and wrote:

sunyayate maha-gostham / girindro 'jagarayate
vyaghra-tundayate kundam / jivatu-rahitasya me

[Now that I no longer have the sustainer of my life, the land of Vraja has become empty and desolate, Govardhana Hill has become like a great python, and Radha Kunda has become like the gaping mouth of a ferocious tiger. [Stava-vali vol 4., Shri Prarthanasraya-caturdaska, text 11)]"Vrindavan, Nandagrama, Varsana and all the holy places of Vraja are now like ghost towns. Now they are like a barren land, a desert; Giriraja Govardhana, where Shri Krishna's pastimes were performed in His kunjas, looks like a python; and this kunda, Radha-Kunda, appears like a tiger ready to swallow me."

At that time Shrila Jiva Gosvami and Shrila Krishnadas Kaviraja Gosvami were still present in this world. Shrila Krishna das Kaviraja Gosvami came to see Raghunatha das Gosvami, who gave him all the writings that he had collected from Shri Svarupa Damodara's kadaca (diary), all he had learned from Shrila Rupa Gosvami, and also his own writings; and Shri Krishnadas Kaviraja Gosvami put these in his Shri Chaitanya-caritamrta. Shri Chaitanya-caritamrta thus contains the essence of all the sweet pastimes of Shri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu and Shri Shri Radha and Krishna. How can we receive this high object?

Now come down. Come to the process I have previously given you. We must begin our practice of bhakti from the beginning. I have told you about the aim and object of our sadhana-bhajana and life. It is very high, and if you want to achieve it, be like Shrila Raghunatha das Gosvami, follow him.

vaco vegam manasah krodha-vegam / jihva-vegam udaropastha-vegam
etan vegan yo visaheta dhirah / sarvam apimam prthivim sa sisyat

[A sober person who can tolerate the urge to speak, the mind's demands, the actions of anger and the urges of the tongue, belly and genitals is qualified to make disciples all over the world. (Shri Upadesamrta, verse 1)]


Typist: Anita dasi
Transcribers: Janaki dasi and Vasanti dasi
Editor: Shyamarani dasi

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